Sometimes I wish...

that I had the power to change things that aren't my place to change...but not really. I know that Heavenly Father knows better than I do, and I trust him. But sometimes I can't help ache over those things that I don't understand quite yet.

I recently found out that a young mother that I know- who is probably around my age or younger and has children that are around the ages of my two younger children - is losing her battle with cancer. I haven't known this beautiful woman for long, and have not had the chance to become close friends with her, but I cry for her at least once a day. I watch her pick her daughter up from school every day. Despite the fact that she is currently undergoing another round of chemo(that is not doing it's job) she is always there and smiling and looking like a supermodel. I watch her little girl run to her arms, and I can see this young mother soaking up every bit of her daughter that she can. I then collect my own sweet son, return to my home, and bawl my eyes out.

I know that Heavenly Father knows what he is doing. This woman is so amazing, and it is clear that He has other work for her to do. But, having lost my own mother to cancer when I was 23, it hurts me so much to imagine this sweet little 5 year old girl and her baby brother no longer being able to run to their mother's arms each day after school, or to fix an ouchie, or to fix someone else's hurtful words.

I am so grateful for my health, my childrens' health, and the health of my husband. I am grateful everyday for my knowledge that we can all live together again someday, even if one of us does have to leave this earth early. I know that, if things don't turn around for this woman, she will still have the opportunity to be with her family forever and to hold her babies again. I, for one, however, am not going to stop praying that she will continue her journey down here for at least another 50 years.